They Are Getting Featured, Published, and Paid, but You're 'Still Not There Yet'

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I recently read a really terrible book. It truly sucked in all the ways it could have. 

Beneath the catchy title, it was dry and boring. I didn’t like the style or the tone. It had all these extra words it didn’t need, and it was super repetitive — NOT in a good way. 

The person who wrote this book? 

I have seen him featured on many a big podcast. I’ve seen his interviews all over YouTube. I haven’t watched a ton of them, but the title of his book caught my attention, so I bought it. 

Before I go on, full disclaimer: I’m one of the people online who is committed to promoting what she’s into/what she believes in, opposed to writing about what she doesn’t like, ESPECIALLY when it involves another person’s creative work and in this case, livelihood. 

So, I’m NOT going to tell you who the author of this book is because It really doesn’t matter, and it’s irrelevant to the message I want to deliver today.

What I need you to know is EXACTLY how I felt as I started reading chapter two of this not-so-good and poorly written book.

I felt…



A fiery feeling that spoke three little words: why not me?

Why. Not. Me?

If this man can write this shitty book, and publish it, and be all over the internet with it, and have people buying it, or at least buying into the idea of it, WHY NOT ME?

Why. Not. Me?

As someone who has been writing her whole life, and someone who has let multiple book projects die in the computer graveyard, and as someone who feels very deeply called, WHY NOT ME? 

Why = what’s the reason?

Not = I don’t have...

Me = what I feel called to do/be/have? 

I know you have moments of this, too. 

When you’re scrolling Instagram, and that person who is in your industry, who has a similar job description or calling as you, has epic amounts of followers and comments and maybe she’s getting a book deal now, etc etc and you pause, you examine, and before you scroll on, you think:

I’m talented. I’m skilled. I’m educated. I’m called.

And whether you realize it or not, a part of you is speaking, and she’s saying: WHY NOT ME? 

I’m going to now tell you WHY. NOT. YOU. 

As in, why it hasn’t been you. Why it hasn’t been you YET...

It hasn’t been you because you haven’t fully claimed it as yours. 

It hasn’t been you because you’ve been dancing on the edge of your work, instead of DEEP IN THE CENTER, IN THE FIRE OF IT, instead of just saying, THIS, this is what I want to do and thank you very much. 

It hasn’t been you because you haven’t reached out with both hands and TAKEN IT, maybe because you’ve been taught not to take, or maybe because you can’t imagine that you CAN HAVE IT.

It hasn’t been you because you’ve decided not to be ready.

It hasn’t been you because you’ve been telling yourself that you’re not there yet!

It hasn’t been you because you’ve been some-daying it. Some day this and some day that.

It hasn’t been you because you’ve made it this BIG IMPOSSIBLE HARD-TO-REACH THING when in fact it is the most natural extension of you, and the natural next progression of you...

It hasn’t been you…


You haven’t allowed it to be You.

That book I bought that sucked?

It wasn’t a waste of money (even though I barely made it through chapter two). It may have been the most valuable book I have ever purchased, because it prompted the moment I decided to claim it. 

It was the moment I decided — I AM following through. I WILL finish this current book project and I WILL publish it and I WILL be accountable to myself.

And if someone thinks it sucks that’s cool, it won’t matter, because I will go to sleep proud of myself while knowing I did what I was called to do.

Big Love,


P.S. If you can’t stand the thought of waiting ANOTHER year to go all in on your dream writing life, the Author Circle is officially OPEN for enrollment, and there’s still a chance to claim a BONUS 1:1 day with me in Tulum (3.5k value). If you haven’t seen this yet, you don’t want to miss out. Go here: 

This is for you if you’re a badass. If you’re ready to be motivated as EVER. If you want to get your work featured alllllll over the internet together over the next nine months. If you want to write a proposal, or a book, or pre-sell your book to your own subscribers — whatever! This is for you if you are CALLED to write and want to build a solid readership that allows you to make the writing the CENTER of your work and your life.

Get all the details and submit your application here: 

Basically, I’m interviewing new writer and messenger BFFS, and we’re going to hang out, connect deeply, and make the next 9 months EPIC in terms of how we show up, where we show up, and what we show up for FIRST!

I’m SO excited I can hardly stand it! Did I mention that an exclusive 2 day event in Tulum is included? Get alllll the details right here:



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You + Me. 12 Months. $7.


Let me explain...

So, I just announced The Author Circle, a 9 month high-level mentorship experience for badass women who’re building their dream writing career (pm me for details). 

It includes an exclusive Author Circle event in Tulum and it’s going to be so. much. fun. that I can’t even contain myself. 

Visualize hanging with a tight knit circle of women who’re getting featured left and right and writing their BEST content (whether it’s for social, the blog, or a book), for 9 whole months! 

Now, the Author Circle is not $7, ‘cause that’d be unbelievable and even absurd... 

But here’s what IS $7...

I knew in my heart, as I was writing out the Author Circle, that if I was going to run and lead this group of badass women, that I would need to level up NOW. THIS VERY MOMENT. 

Basically, I needed to claim AUTHOR and claim it for real! 

You may not know this about me (or maybe you do), but I’ve been writing books and pushing them to the back of the drawer (aka the book graveyard of my computer) for YEARS. 

It’s not the talent, skill, or devotion that I lack, it’s the accountability. 

Apparently, being accountable to myself is not worth as much as being accountable to YOU! I don't exactly know WHY this is, but it's proven itself true for me again and again. 

So, I decided to set up a fool-proof way for me to not only finish this current book project, but to publish it, for you first, and then for everyone else out there in the world I can get it to.

Before I tell you more, I’ll tell you that this book is for women who’re ready to THRIVE in their closest relationship(s) AND their financial lives. #itsbothand

What’s inside this book? 

Well, the working title is The Vital Mother, and so far there are insights and stories I wish I would have heard/read/known BEFORE a) getting married and b) becoming a mother 

I was truly delusional about:

+ what marriage actually was
+ what motherhood would be
+ what changes motherhood would make to my financial life

And these things affected, well, everything.

I want to help women thrive creatively, and financially, while being the women and mothers they want to be. That's the mission.

So, here’s how it works: 

Each month, for the next 12 months, I’m going to deliver to YOU a completely finished and edited chapter of my book. Alongside each chapter, you'll find some really LIT journal prompts to help you powerfully integrate the insights and material.

For just $7 a month, you get to be the first to read my book. 

Because you will receive just one chapter per month, you’ll get to go super deep with the material. AND, as an early supporter you'll get the forthcoming accompanying transformational program for FREE when it goes LIVE (it'll be priced between $197-$997). You heard that right!

Now, I know you care less about the details and more about what this book and offering can do for you, so let me tell you about that part:

I TRULY HAVE NO CLUE ASIDE FROM THE FACT THAT I KNOW IT'LL OPEN YOUR MIND TO NEW INSIGHTS AND REALIZATIONS around relationships, motherhood, creative fulfillment, and money. 

I can’t 100% know where this is going and where this material is going to take you (or me)! Even if I knew, I would be hesitant to tell you, because the writing usually reveals where IT wants to go, and my job is to allow THAT!

I CAN say that this book will help you:

1. take responsibility
2. become aware of things you were not aware of
3. take inspired action
4. create your personal micro Universe of SUPPORT + next-level abundance 
5. and get you going on living your best life ('cause that's what I'm all about all the time) 

More than anything, this offering is a sacred and mysterious exchange...

If you feel excited in your body, and expansion in your heart, and any kinda YES that indicates this writing is going to SERVE YOU and NOURISH YOU and SHIFT YOU (or if you just love me and want to support me), then by all means, click this button right here and get yourself signed right up:

Sign up here for just $7 and download the Introduction today:

How it works:

🔹The subscription runs for 12 months (If you stay on for the whole book)
🔹Each month you'll receive an email on the last day of the month that let's you know the next chapter has released (Chapter 1 will release last day in July)
🔹At the end of the 12 month journey you'll receive access to the program we create based on the book's content (this aspect of the offer is ONLY valid if you stay on the full 12 months though — and this program will be priced somewhere between $197-$997 ish).
🔹The chapters will be uploaded into a password protected portal in PDF form, where you can download them. So yes, you'll be reading on your computer or device, unless you print them out (which is my recommendation!)
🔹if you decide this magic is no longer for you, you can totally unsubscribe at ANY time — there’s no obligation to stay with it.

Sign up here and get started with the Introduction today:

After you sign up, you'll be directed to a confirmation page, and then you'll receive an automatic welcome email with a link to sign into the portal where you can access the Introduction! Woo! 

Have a Q for me? Just wanna cheer me on? Leave me a comment below + I'll be right with You, wooo!

Big Love,



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On Growing a Readership + Finding Your Voice Online: How to Show Up as the Full Spectrum YOU (and Get Published and Paid While You're at It).


At the end of my very first blog post, written in 2013, I signed with the name: Jillian Anjali. It was a name I first heard in meditation out in Seattle, in the midst of a full blown awakening.

When I received that name I was no longer who I was before I received that name.

Eye wide open (not a typo). Sensitive. Like a newborn. My father, who is catholic, would call this my ‘conversion’ to the faith. And it was. I had remembered the truth of my eternal and limitless nature.

When I came back to the East coast after that awakening (‘cause life is a constant unfolding awakening if you’re down for it), I lost everyone in my life at once. I left a relationship. And I lost most of my childhood friends in the process.

I was suddenly alone with all of the transformation, so naturally, I started to look for the others.

Where did I look?


It was 2011 and it was a fresh start — one I needed in order to radically shift identities. Everything I wrote online, in the beginning, was so flowery and what I’ll refer to as ‘spiritual speak’, with little prayer hands trailing behind every last sentence.

Was I was expressing my state of consciousness? I’m not sure, but I was connecting with the others.

A few years later, following the birth of my first child (G), I started the blog.

Getting online with my work meant — you know putting my best foot forward, which was, again, demonstrated by all the spiritual speak and the name that was not really my name.

It’s important for you to know, that I didn’t normally talk spiritual speak to the people I was standing in front of, in person. Like, I never really said, ‘sister’ or ‘brother’ or ‘namaste’ or...

I know, I know. It’s interesting to reflect on.


How do you show up as YOU online? And not just some shiny prepared version of You, but like, the true full-spectrum range of You?

Today, five + years after starting the blog, I write like I talk.

Five years ago, someone reading all my flowery writing, was getting a different impression of who I was, than someone who reads my stuff now.

And here’s where I want to dig in, because here’s where it gets interesting...

I don’t think I could have showed up, writing as I speak, from the start, unless I was heavily coached to do so.

And even if I was heavily coached to do so, I think I still would have gone through what I will refer to as ‘the unveiling of Self online’.

I think the same is true for You. You’re in a process.


Scary, huh? You could be exposed! They might discover you’re actually not all that good at what you think you’re good at! You publish something on the internet and, surprise, everyone can find it and read it. It’s all out here, waiting to be seen.

Exhilarating? Fun? Terrifying? Terrifying.

Unless of course you’re solid and grounded in your own perception of self.

But if you’re not? Good luck out here. Good. Luck.

You WILL go through your own unveiling of the Self here, though. Your unveiling might have a different feel and timeline than mine, but there is a process of getting comfortable, getting confident, and finding/honing your voice that comes with the territory.

Here’s another thing: it takes being out here, to BE out here, while simultaneously being safe. You can’t create the experience of being safe in your self-expression while you’re on the sidelines. You. Just. Can’t.

I had to go through the unveiling. Because I wasn’t comfortable being seen or heard. Not yet. I could only show a slice of myself back then. And I showed the pure-hearted slice. The super-connected-to-the-God-force slice. The angelic slice.

But that’s not all of me. I couldn’t let full spectrum me be seen yet, because I had to…


So how do you do it? This UNVEILING OF THE SOUL ONLINE? This revealing of yourSelf?

There’s only one way and it’s this: Show up today and write/share something.

Then, show up the tomorrow, and write/share something else.

Big Love,




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+ make money while establishing yourself as a leader in your field (no more delaying monetization until the day you are said author and leader — that sh*t stops right here).

+ become an internationally recognized writer / thought-leader / author (I KNOW you’re not maximizing the tools available to you).

+ powerfully strategize your business growth (and future book launch). 

+ set up the creative container and discipline you need to BRING YOUR VISION TO LIFE. FINALLY. Because waiting is a choice you’ve been making!

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Go From Overwhelmed to On-Point with Your Purpose Work with the Deeply Supported Mother Workbook


If you want to:

  • identify what needs to come off your plate NOW

  • map (and start to magnetize) your ideal support system with one of my favorite exercises (SO YOU CAN SHIFT INTO TRULY THRIVING)

  • get instant insight on doing work and motherhood on your own terms 

  • take the next-level action steps you’ve been avoiding

Then, this is for you. Download it below for instant access.