On Growing a Readership + Finding Your Voice Online: How to Show Up as the Full Spectrum YOU (and Get Published and Paid While You're at It).

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At the end of my very first blog post, written in 2013, I signed with the name: Jillian Anjali. It was a name I first heard deep in meditation out in Seattle, in the midst of a full blown awakening. I don’t use the word awakening lightly here.

When I received that name I was no longer who I was before I received that name.

Eye wide open (not a typo). Sensitive. Like a newborn. My father, who is catholic, would call this my ‘conversion’ to the faith. And it was. I had remembered the truth of my eternal and limitless nature.

When I came back to the East coast after that awakening (‘cause life is a constant unfolding awakening if you’re down for it), I lost everyone in my life at once. I left a relationship. And I lost most of my childhood friends in the process.

Music that I used to like, suddenly felt like knives through my chest. Different parts of me were being activated. I was suddenly alone with all of the transformation. I started to look for ‘the others’.

Where did I look?

Facebook.

It was 2011 and it was a fresh start — one I needed in order to radically shift identities.

Everything I wrote online, in the beginning, was so flowery and what I’ll refer to as ‘spiritual speak’, with little prayer hands trailing behind every last sentence. And I mean everything.

Was I was expressing my state of consciousness? I’m not sure, but I was connecting with the others.

A few years later, following the birth of my first child (G), I started the blog.

Getting online with my work meant — you know putting my best foot forward, which was, again, demonstrated by all the spiritual speak and the name that was not really my name.

It’s important for you to know, that I didn’t normally talk spiritual speak to the people I was standing in front of, in person. Like, I never really said, ‘sister’ or ‘brother’ or ‘namaste’ or...

I know, I know. It’s interesting to reflect on.

HOW DO I SHOW UP AS ME, ONLINE?

Who was I then? Who am I now? Who is beneath this personality, today?

How do I show up as me online? And not just some shiny prepared version of me, but like, the true full-spectrum range of me?

Today, five + years after starting the blog, I write like I talk.

I’m pretty direct.

I was born and raised in NJ and (gasp) I’m impatient at times. Especially if we’re close and you’re talking a lot but I can’t sense where it’s going or what the actual point is (just ask my partner Aaron — it’s really not my best trait and I’m working on it).

That’s what’s funny though right?

Like, five years ago, someone reading all my flowery writing, was getting a different impression of who I was, than someone who reads my stuff now.

And here’s where I want to dig in, because here’s where it gets interesting...

I don’t think I could have showed up, writing as I speak, from the start, unless I was heavily coached to do so.

And even if I was heavily coached to do so, I think I still would have gone through what I will refer to as ‘the unveiling of Self online’.

EVERYONE CAN SEE YOU OUT HERE.

Scary, huh? You could be exposed! They might discover you’re actually not all that good at what you think you’re good at! You publish something on the internet and, surprise, everyone can find it and read it. It’s all out here, waiting to be seen.

Exhilarating? Fun? Terrifying? Terrifying.

Unless of course you’re solid and grounded in your own perception of self.

But if you’re not? Good luck out here. Good. Luck.

You WILL go through your own unveiling of the Self here, though. Your unveiling might have a different feel and timeline than mine, but there is a process of getting comfortable, getting confident, and finding/honing your voice that comes with the territory.

Here’s another thing: it takes being out here, to BE out here, while simultaneously being safe. You can’t create the experience of being safe in your self-expression while you’re on the sidelines. You. Just. Can’t.

I had to go through the unveiling. Because I wasn’t comfortable being seen or heard. Not yet. I could only show a slice of myself back then. And I showed the pure-hearted slice. The super-connected-to-the-God-force slice. The angelic slice.

But that’s not all of me. I couldn’t let full spectrum me be seen yet, because I had to…

FIND MYSELF OUT IN THE OPEN. FIND MY VOICE, NOT IN A VACUUM, BUT OUT HERE WHERE IT’S LOUD AND THINGS ARE BEING SAID.

I’m really a writer through and through. And what that means is... this right here? This thing we’re doing? Where you’re reading my words on a screen from somewhere in the world?

Well, it’s intimate. Like, this is how I connect. This is how I express. This is how I find truth. This is how I am deeply seen. Writing, for me, is one of the gateways to my Soul.

So how do you do it? This UNVEILING OF THE SOUL ONLINE? This revealing of yourSelf?

There’s only one way and it’s this: Show up today and write/share something.

Then, show up the tomorrow, and write/share something else.

Big Love,

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Am I the Mother I Want to Be? Sometimes, I Am Her.

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I remember sitting at a table with two friends last year, when one of them (who was not yet a mama) said something along the lines of, “I know I’m not ready for a child. I don’t want to pass my unconsciousness down the line.”

In my mind, my honest response was, “good luck with that!”

Maybe I was quick to respond because of my own experience. I mean, even after my awakening in 2011, I still struggle with guilt about the way I sometimes fail my son (who is now 5).

You can only do so much ancestral healing work from OUTSIDE the ring.

As in: you can prepare as much as you want before you become a mother, but once you’re a mother (or parent) — the real work begins.

That’s my opinion.

Maybe, like me, you’ll say to yourself, “Holy sh*t, I thought I had healed this.”

There have been dark moments (usually when I’m not taking care of myself/my energy or devoting time to my purpose-work) where I have grabbed my five year old by the shoulders, shaken him, and yelled in his face. Not for no reason, mind you, but because I could no longer tolerate his behavior and non-compliance (which I understand is a glaring reflection of ME).

There have been other things. Like the times when I have made him responsible for the negative shift in energy during the day, or in the house, or between us. Or the times when I have dragged him kicking and screaming to the yard and left him out there until I could get calm enough to handle it.

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Or the times I have outright asked him, “What’s wrong with you?” — all the while knowing how damaging that statement is, and that there is truly nothing wrong with him, but that it’s ME and his behavior or a situation that needs to be addressed with consciousness.

There have also been really sad times when I have completely shut myself and my heart down, and been conditional with my love — a pattern I no doubt lived on the receiving end of as a daughter of an unfit mother.

I won’t go into a long defensive explanation about how freaking persistent, intense, and energetically demanding he is. But I will say: he wants to make ALL the rules, he does not comply, and parenting him is NOT easy.

I’ve invested in therapy. I’ve been doing EFT and EMDR. I’ve read Dr. Shefali. And Peaceful Parent, Happy Child. I’ve read the books about the Spirited Children. I’ve talked to other moms who get it. I’ve talked to moms who don’t.

And I’ve given my child more space to exist as who he naturally is than so many I see fitting their children into tidy little boxes of what’s acceptable — viewing them not as unique beings, but rather as extensions of themselves.

And despite all of it, I still get it wrong, more often than I want to.

Is there more I could do? Yes.

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Am I the mother I want to be? Sometimes I am her.

Sometimes, I lean right into her and I’m proud and relieved. In the moments where I remember to shift the energy intelligently — I am her. In the moments when I maintain eye contact and can hold my role as the energetic container for his intensity — I am her.

When I remember to laugh at it all, that he chose me, and that he IS going to grow into a wonderful and emotionally intelligent young man — I am her.

It’s vulnerable for me to share my dark mom moments, because I know conceptually what the right and wrong (or unconscious) ways mothering/parenting are — meanwhile, my LIVED experience of being mothered is one of consistent abuse.

I’m sitting here right now, as I write this, thinking of a woman I can send this to, to read before I hit publish. Maybe she’ll tell me not to share it, or maybe she’ll say, ‘me too’ — that she also has dark mom moments that are hard to talk about.

One thing is for certain: I know that I am human. I know that I am not alone on the journey. I know that I came, not to be perfect — but to heal — to carry the torch forward for my Soul family and lineage one step at a time, even if that means that the steps I take don’t get us fully to the destination I know is available.

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In my mind I can hear one of my friends quote Matt Kahn. In moments of admitting my faults and sharing my pain, she’d remind me, “you know Jillian, Matt Kahn would say that in the dark moments, ‘you deserve more love, not less.’”

Is it time to hold yourself with the Love and compassion that you know will wash your Spirit clean and clear? Is it time to forgive yourself for your mistakes and move forward? Is it time to love yourself unconditionally, as if you were the child who needed to be held?

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You’re not here to be perfect. You’re here to be human. And the more you can allow for your mistakes the easier you’ll move through them, learn from them, and the more quickly you will discover another way — a better way — a more aligned way for you + yours. .

Loving You,

Jillian Xx

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Permission to Prosper: How to Cultivate Your Sexual Energy to Manifest Like a Queen

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If we're going to have a conscious conversation around money, sexual energy, and manifestation we need to lay out a solid foundation before we walk through.

We also need to ditch the shame + secrecy around wanting more, because there's nothing wrong with financial well-being in your life.

Money is a neutral form of energetic exchange. And energy is spirit in motion. Money is spiritual. Because money is neutral, it can become a vehicle for what you value.

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You might value travel, art, and adventure. Or maybe your top priority is re-investing in your business and personal growth. Whatever is on your list know this: Money in your hands is a force for good.

Money in your hands is different than in anyone else's hands on the planet. Why? Because there is only one Y-O-U.

You'll need money to traverse this physical plane and wandering without it isn't enjoyable. Am I right?!

If money is neutral and just an exchange for what you value, why is there so much baggage + wounding in relationship to it?

Why are some of us struggling while others are staying at the Ritz? Why are there big-hearted consciousness-raisin' people who struggle to make ends meet?

Here are 9 opportunities to explore your psyche:

  • Did your parents argue about money?

  • Did you have enough?

  • What was your mother's relationship to money?

  • If you had plenty of it, were other kids jealous?

  • Did someone tell you that the 'meek will inherit the earth'?

  • Were you conditioned to buy the cheapest things?

  • Or were you sent off to a prestigious college without a financial care?

  • Was any of your early education dedicated to teaching you how to build wealth?

Answer these questions to get a glimpse into your current mind-body-money-relationship. They'll help you make some deep + fundamental changes in your beliefs and emotional patterns.

Now that we've done some unearthing I want you to know that you have extraordinary power. Exercising that power is not wrong or bad. When sex, money, and power are heart-guided they become beautiful expressions of your unique essence.

Sexual energy can be cultivated and directed to energize your manifesting power i.e. stoke your ultimate creative potential.

Imagine if you were very quiet, and the cosmos couldn't hear you when you spoke. Now, imagine your heart-body-mind beaming powerfully in all directions. Which would you prefer?

Sexual energy is the juice of all life, it's the creative energy of the cosmos, it's the river beneath the river, it's what creates all things epic, every painting, poem, gold metal, and fulfilled pursuit is the result of desire and the willingness to let it rise within.

Yet sexual energy has been demonized in the same way that money has. And because of this, we're still working to heal centuries of deep sexual suppression.

We've been so strongly influenced to believe that a sexual woman is a temptress, out to manipulate and distract man from the God-force. 

It's the opposite. Your sexuality is your bridge to the Divine. Dare to awaken it's potential to heal, restore, and guide you on your path. 

What would happen if you gave yourself permission to experience ecstasy, bliss, and pleasure whether on your meditation cushion or in your bed? What would happen if you relaxed, opened, and expanded your capacity to receive? What would happen if you decided that you were worthy of total integration?

One thing is for certain and it's that you'd be less likely to reject all the magic when it shows up for you.

In a culture that has conditioned you to believe that giving is a more sacred than receiving it's important work to expand your capacity to receive. 

If you haven't yet given yourself permission to create a new level of financial well-being and mind-bending pleasure, this is your big invitation.

Big Love,

Jillian Xx

 

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HI, I'M JILLIAN ANDERSON. I’m a writer, healer, and a transformational coach, who helps soulful women increase their pleasure, satisfaction, and financial well-being. I'm most known for my six-week group program, Permission to Prosper, where I help women transform their relationship with money, by accessing and harnessing the power of their sexual energy.

I’ve worked with over 200 clients across 53 countries, and I’ve been told (by one of my clients) that I’m the kind of woman who goes for the cake, and eats it, too. Coming more deeply into my earning power has taken years, and I'm excited to share with you the unconventional approach that I take, to helping my clients step into deeper fulfillment and financial well-being. 

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